There are many blogs, videos, opinions and just a lot of words written on the Internet that have consumed my waking and sleeping mind as I strive to get a grip on what it is that I need to make me feel… fulfilled. Like trying to cross a busy city road, the noise of that web traffic has become all consuming and overwhelming as I ping-pong from one life-plan to another: drink less, drink more, drink tea, don’t drink coffee, walk, run, stop eating read meat and so on and so on.
With some many conflicting views on how best to become something else I’ve found that I am actually confused as a person; i’m not entirely sure I know who I am. I can see what those other people are; they’re fit, musclaura, attractive, carefree, rich or at least that’s how they appear. but who i am? who have I become?
After watching many a YouTube video distilling the virtues of this life hacks or that lifestyle choice, one of yours
popped into my feed. It was about money and your struggle with life’s financial pressure and how you managed to relieve that pressure. And this of course led me to the other posts on your channel and suddenly the things you said, the philosophy you extolled seemed to strike a chord with me. It felt like minimalism was something that I had been slowly executing, but without explicitly trying to, over the past months. It feels as if this ‘cleansing’ is helping me see things clearer, helping me have purpose and understand what I need from my life and what is important.
I am currently working through the end of my current job, one in which I have been for over 11 years now and so has taken a large part of my adult life (I’m 42) and, for me, now a huge change beckons. The role has, over those 11 years come to define me both as an employee but more destructive as a person. The job has slowly poisoned my outlook and my family life, mostly due to the financial burden it has placed on me.
My upcoming change of job has brought some clarity to many things but mostly to that life outlook and finally being able to see what is important. Whilst I will have less financial pressure which obviously helps, I do feel that this opportunity is one that I have made for myself, and maybe selfishly, feel I deserve. But I’ve done it not just for me but for my family so that we can do all those things that we have always talked about.
Your blog has opened my eyes to the understanding that it isn’t those material things that we need, I don’t need another watch or a bigger car or that pair of trainers, right now. They can be bought when needed and not just because the Buy Now button was just one click away and it was easier to click it than not!
I feel that this email is my letter to myself too; so that I can put down on paper how I feel now and how excited I feel about moving forward boldly into a bright new future.
This is me making my first step in my future.